March 5, 2010 – NOW WHAT??
03/10/2010
(Real-time Entry)
Friday turned out to be an unexpected whirlwind for my mom and me after we received less than desirable news… over and over again.
It all began with a family meeting with Dad’s psychiatrist at Botsford Hospital to bring us up to speed with his treatment and prognosis after 3.5 weeks in the Geri-Psychiatric Ward. The news wasn’t promising, as Dad hasn’t been reacting predictably to their usual regimen of meds typically used to curb aggression in Alzheimer’s patients. Apparently, my dad appears to be somewhat of a baffling case for them…
Dad’s psychiatrist suggested that Dad may have another complication in ADDITION to Alzheimer’s! He introduced us to the concept of Frontotemporal Dementia – otherwise known as FTD or Pick’s Disease. He explained that a brain affected by Alzheimer’s dies in its entirety yet very slowly, whereas, Frontotemporal Dementia attacks just the frontal and temporal lobes of the brain but kills that part of the brain very aggressively and quickly. He said that Dad’s newfound aggression, physical violence and inappropriate social behavior could easily be explained by FTD, including the shocking rate at which he seems to be in decline. The doctor pointed out that within the 3 weeks Dad has been at Botsford they have noticed a drastic reduction in his abilities and recognition; they’ve even noticed a drastic decline in just the past 5-7 days! He said that 3 weeks ago Dad would eat if he was hungry and food was placed in front of him; he says that now Dad just stares at the food and can’t process what to do with it. This change has happened within 1-3 weeks! He pointed out that Alzheimer’s absolutely does NOT act this quickly and that an Alzheimer’s diagnosis alone doesn’t explain the last 5 months of severe decline we’ve astonishingly witnessed.
I suppose the good news is (assuming that this suggested FTD diagnosis is correct) that perhaps Dad’s suffering won’t be prolonged. At the rate they are witnessing his degeneration, it was loosely suggested that Dad may not live out the year. Six months was even thrown out when I pressed. Of course, as usual, “no one can say for sure…”
Well, I say, Halleluiah! – please just take him home! He is tired and restless and has been preparing spiritually for this part of his trip for a very long time. He is ready, and he deserves peace.
The obstacle now though is where will he live out his remaining days? (watch video below)
(Real time entry)
Okay, I have a pound of material to post but have been putting it off for weeks trying to take a break from the topic of Alzheimer’s to focus on me and my needs. However, after being sick yet AGAIN this week (for the 3rd time this month), I figure I’ll just jump online real fast to update everyone on a bunch of stuff all at once so I can get it off my chest and then everyone will be in the know.
COURT. The case of the “alleged” thieves has been transferred from Plymouth to Wayne County. The boys are still in jail awaiting a Feb 17th date with the Frank Murphy Hall of Justice to hear what the consequences will be if they choose to plead guilty. At least they’re still in jail and have had a very long month.
DAD. I’ve been visiting Dad 1-2 times a week – a combination of trying to step back a bit and simultaneously being sick. From what I can see, I would say that he has good hours and bad hours, no longer consistently good and bad DAYS. I’m not sure there is any method to the madness over there.
After yet another aggressive outburst today from my dad toward another resident (he was calling a woman derogatory names and trying to push her off a couch), the Sunrise Assisted Living psychiatrist made the professional call to send Dad to Botsford Hospital’s Geriatric Psychiatric Ward for 5-7 days of strict observation, monitoring and prescription tweaking. A bed wasn’t scheduled to be open at Botsford until tomorrow, but after yet another outburst this afternoon, the police were summoned to Sunrise. After Dad responded disrespectfully to them, an ambulance transported Dad earlier than planned to Botsford for what is called Involuntary Admittance by the State. Last I heard, he was going to be kept in the ER until a bed opened in the ward.
I can’t even IMAGINE what he is going through. When he was in the hospital for seizures 1.5 years ago he was overwhelmed, scared and utterly confused. My poor, poor Dad…
Of course, Mom and I were horrified to hear this news today and then distraught when we were informed that Dad will only be able to have very limited visitors for ONE hour a day. God help him. He is going to be all alone on this journey.
The upside to all of this is that apparently this course of action happens to approximately 30% of Sunrise’s Alzheimer’s patients (based on the 3rd party information I received today) and there can be amazingly positive results that emerge from the ultimate experience. Hopefully, Dad will emerge transformed, calm and peaceful. This is at least what we pray for him everyday. It seems to be the only thing we can really do.
My dad had a bad night last night (Friday). He got upset in the middle of the night and started knocking over tables and throwing glasses in the center of the nursing home. Sunrise called 911 and the police came. When my dad saw the uniformed police he settled down as he recognized and respected their uniforms and authority. (I was told today that he said something like he thought he was in a militay / war zone and was defending himself). In the meantime, my mom was called at 2:30am and she arrived as the police were leaving. My dad was calm and sitting down when she got there. She took him to his bedroom and they laid down together. He was restless, but they both fell asleep around 4:30 am. When my mom awoke in the morning, my dad was still sleeping so she let him sleep and went home.
Amy, Frankie, Ashton and I got to the center today around 3:30pm. My cousin Danny Firek was there and said my dad had been doing okay since he had been there visiting. My dad was in a good mood but seemed tired, and was even less rational than normal. He was “seeing” a lot more things that weren’t there than normal. Like when he got on the floor to look at my shoes and said “It’s not fair that this guy (my left shoe) has 3 pillows and this guy (my right shoe) only has one”. So we agreed that we would have to work that out with them.
We stayed the afternoon and all had dinner together. After dinner my dad was falling asleep in his chair in his room so I suggested that he get ready for bed and he agreed. I gave him his toothbrush with toothpaste on it and let him brush his teeth. When I went back in to check on him he had the toilet seat up and looked like he was going to rinse his toothbrush in the toilet. I quickly took it from him and rinsed it in the sink. I then helped him get undressed for bed. We took off his fleece sweatshirt and underneath he had on 2 undershirts. We took off his jeans, then a pair of boxer shorts, then a pair of boxer briefs, and we left on his jockey shorts. (FYI, my dad doesn’t own any boxers or boxer briefs! Residents “borrow” from one another’s closets unknowingly). I then put his pajamas on and put him to bed. He went right out. As we were packing up to leave he woke up and we all gave him hugs and kisses and wished him a good night. By the time we left his room he was snoring.
I sure hope he has a restful night tonight!
Thursday, January 14, 2010 – by Fran Firek
01/14/2010
January 8, 2010 – A TURNING POINT?
01/08/2010
(Real-time Entry)
Two better days in a row now for my dad – plus last night he was given a sleeping pill which seems to have allowed him to finally get some much-needed rest! Thank God.
You know, this disease is so interesting in that you’re never sure what you’re going to find when you walk into the room with him. Just two months ago in November, Dad was starting to have trouble with some immediate family members’ names and faces. The bottom of the pit was when we introduced himself to my mother twice. And he had begun calling me by my brother Todd’s name on occasion. Sometimes he’d even ask me in mid-conversation, Where’d that girl go that was just sitting here? The one with the black hair? Where’s your sister? Tell me when she gets back because I have something important to tell her…
But magically sometime in December prior to Christmas, he snapped back a few notches and – even despite the confusion and trauma he’s gone through at the nursing home this past week – he still continues to know WITHOUT A DOUBT who I am, my mother, and my brothers! It’s a miracle and a gift! – albeit a temporary one, I know. Regardless, we’ll TAKE it! 🙂 It’s so exciting for me that Dad is currently funneling through ALL of the different nicknames he has for me, referring to me just last night as “Shmoe” (aka Joe the Shmoe). When I left the table for a few minutes, I was told that he turned to my cousin and asked, Where’d Shmoe go? It’s so cute and playful and I am so bloody thankful every single time he does it!
We’re not sure sometimes if Dad knows every friend and family member who visits with him but it is amazing how, even on days when he doesn’t appear to know someone by name, he still knows what people are associated with that person! For example, my cousin Karrie didn’t think Dad knew who she was last night when she visited, but Dad kept talking to her about “Bill” (her husband), recounting some real and some made up stories about his interactions with Bill. When our family friend Joyce visited Dad at our home around Christmastime, Joyce was positive that he no longer knew who she was yet he kept talking to her about “Kathy” (my aunt and Joyce’s best friend)! On Dad’s first full-day at the nursing home, when we visited him with my Aunt Kathy in tow, Dad called her once by her full name (which pleased her greatly!) and then proceeded to tell “Jack” stories (her husband). He’s a very smart fellow and it is fascinating to see the brain at work and which parts still connect on some days.
Probably because Dad’s last two days have been better and less emotional for him, my past two days have come with some emotional relief as well. On some emotional purging expedition, I even went and cut off my hair! I literally put my head in my hairdresser’s hands after making it VERY CLEAR that she couldn’t cut it TOO SHORT or else I might risk confusing my dad. I want him to recognize me for as long as humanly possible…
There were a few good signs yesterday at the nursing home. First, I think Dad barely cried. Secondly, when my mom walked into his bedroom after he had awoken from his nap, she found him standing dressed at the foot of the bed not upset. He said, Oh, hi, honey! She noticed that he had removed a framed photo from the wall of her and him in Hilton Head with their favorite band, The Headliners, and it was now peacefully resting on the window sill. I would like to think that this means that the photos I hung the other night are making a difference for him, that he’s noticing them and perhaps they’re part of what’s calming him when he awakes. Thirdly, when I arrived last night after dinner, Dad was happily sweeping the dining room floor!!! Sweeping was a chore he did regularly at home. I believe this is a sign that he has begun to place pride and ownership in his new surroundings and – in perfect Frank Firek style! – he wants to help out and be of assistance. He is amazing and it always moves my heart to see him in action like the old days! Of course, he paused when it came time to figure out the dustpan and he was much better at the sweeping aspect itself. But in a playful way, he purposely banged the broom against chair legs and wheelchair wheels while he was sweeping, and he jokingly said to the ladies sitting in those chairs, Oh, I’m sorry, was I bothering you?? 🙂
He has made a new friend at the home. Her name is Carmen. The two positive attributes of Carmen is that she giggles non-stop at everything (so Dad thinks he’s pretty funny!) and that she is an opera singer with a beautiful voice. It’s great to see her sing and Dad dancing around her! Music and humor are still two big ways into his heart and they always lead him to his happy place! I’ve seen Dad kiss Carmen on her hand a couple of times but, then again, which lady doesn’t he do that to? 🙂 Last night, he kissed Carmen on the hand and then he immediately turned to my mom and kissed her on her hand! What an interesting trio!
My mom and my brother Frank Jr. met with the nursing home director yesterday afternoon, one week into Dad’s stay. The director was describing how many people get dropped off at the home and then have very few visitors throughout their stay. Then he commented on how incredibly close our family appears to be and how he can tell that Dad’s moods seem to be directly related to us and his interactions with us. He is pleased that we are there nearly around the clock during Dad’s waking hours to help him with his transition. He also suggested that Dad’s violent outburst his first night at the nursing home wasn’t as bad as it sounded and that they’ve never witnessed any behavior even close to that from him since. Then he suggested that we might want to attempt soon to take Dad out for a day trip to someplace familiar! So, this Sunday, Dad is going to spend the day at Frank and Amy’s playing with his grandkids!!! We are SO excited! A week into the transition, with his meds re-adjusted and his good mood back, maybe we’re at a turning point here. That would be such a blessing and a relief! There’s nothing worse than watching a loved one in pain. I’ll take his smile over tears any day! xo